Back in my school days (graduated high school in 1992), we had no computers in schools...no internet...no cell phones and no Facebook. Blogs did not exist. Those of us who were writers, healers and sharers of any kind, had to use other methods to get the message out.
I was friendly but distant in school...preoccupied with deeper existential thoughts. I always saw myself as "on the outside" of all the cliques...never actually fitting in. My friendships were often one on one. Remarkably, in the tenth grade, my high school participated in a revolutionary project where they surveyed the whole school (9th grade through 12th grade). The survey asked kids to name a person in school who they could turn to- to talk to, get advice from and who they found supportive when in times of trouble. They chose the top ten nominees and named them "Natural Helpers". These Natural Helpers were assigned to work alongside the School Psychologist and Counselors and were asked to use their "natural" abilities to help in the situations that troubled students.
That was the first time I knew I was meant to be a "Natural Helper"....later I followed the path of religion thinking that Service to God was my calling. Many aspects of Christianity did not fully make sense to me. It seemed there were many contradictory conclusions one could make about the scriptures. But the community was a place where I did learn and grow...I learned about selfless service to others in a new way. I learned about thinking about choices in how they affect the group and not just the one person (the self). So this experience did groom me for many to come. I learned Leadership there in church. We had "Discipleship Groups" on our campus. These women needed someone to organize them and create a structure for how we met, prayed and served. Someone had to maintain accountability and reporting. Naturally I was good at this and I got better over 5 years.
My next role as a Natural Helper was Childcare. I was a Natural Leader in my Classroom. I created and implemented strategies; utilized staff; cared for children; increased the enrollment in the classrooms. When my brother died suddenly in Iraq, it was so hard to face the classroom...the parents...it was so difficult to be there for the staff. I opted to work from home and perform my duties in a smaller setting. It was less stressful and there were fewer people to interface with daily. This made the healing process easier for me. I had 4 children in my home childcare, 4 sets of parents. This was a lot easier than 32 students and 32 families with 6 staff. After several years, my child was a school ager. I saw that I was a bit stagnant from performing the same tasks day after day and week after week and year after year...with the same people. I realized I needed expansion but I had no idea how much it was needed.
Being a creative person, I started party-planning and event hosting. I did these things in my spare time. I had fun again...it was challenging. I met new people and remembered I used to be more confident. By the time my second child was 3 years old, I had studied and explored and became very masterful at many things that were once completely foreign to me. I had learned about Universal Consciousness and the Law of Attraction. I studied Kabbalah, meditation, yoga...so many "new age" concepts and practices. I learned about what Buddhists believe. I gained an understanding of what Muslims believe. I learned about "Spiritual Awakening" by personally experiencing it. When your consciousness truly shifts...when the Spirit really opens up...you are changed permanently.
At that point in my life I could easily see that my relationship of 16 years no longer suited me. We were not growing...not headed in the same direction. We did not have the same viewpoints or beliefs. In fact, there were even many darker and more sinister things happening under the surface of the relationship. We were unhealthy. We were incompatible. It was time to move on. In addition to the Spiritual Awakening, I had also been shown by my Spirit Guides that I was supposed to seek a partner who shared my Spiritual beliefs. I began to research the idea of people who were a mirror of each other. This beautiful knowledge was also given to me during my Spiritual Awakening. I realized that we WILL recognize that reflection of our soul in another person...but only if we seek that in our TRUTH. You cannot lie to your true self. Your SOUL will not accept the lies. A truly Spiritual person will only be able to seek truth and not tolerate the lower vibrational stuff of the world.
So...a journey. I began a new journey around 2010. That was when I was presented with my first personal deck of Tarot cards. I had always gone to other readers and believed in them and hoped I could cultivate a way to be a Healer myself. A dear friend who is a True Healer herself, had advised me to seek out a way to heal people with my special abilities. It is really mysterious...healing. I mean, what works for one person does not always work for another Some things work for most people but for those few others, the symptoms will persist. For example, I cannot use Aspirin. I used it once when I was around 14 years old and we ended up at the ER. My stomach is too sensitive to aspirin. So I cannot benefit from it the way others can.
Reading Cards
I began to practice reading in 2010. I worked at this daily for two years. One time I doubted my own abilities and went to a card reader who I had never met . This woman put some cards out and then sat back and stared at me. Her first words were this:
"Why are you here?"
I was confused. I asked her what she meant. She bluntly stated that her cards and guides were telling her that I was LIKE her...able to see for myself and KNOW for myself...and for others. So again she queried, "Why are you here?".
Every path is challenging. Reading and believing and trusting and using it are all part of the journey for me. In High School I was booed off the stage when I auditioned for a Musical Production. I was told my voice did not project. I was not a singer. Two years later I was touring South County as a front-liner for a band...and that lead to many other gigs with other groups and as a Soloist too. So I guess that one time was me lacking confidence. Because clearly...I can sing...rather well.
I have now read cards for hundreds of people. There have been so many times when a Client has come back to me to tell me how the reading positively impacted choices they were making, or freed them of emotional ties...or in a few cases, just the fact that things I told them later happened. Sometimes I meet people and I am urged to reach out and share something, ask something or give something. I just obey the calling. I try and judge when it is possible to share and when it is wise not to. This is not so easy. I recently attempted to reach out to someone who I felt really needed some support. It was a mistake and I feel I really offended them. no one is perfect. We are all learning. What I learned from that experience was that sometimes it is not MY HELP that is needed...in other words, they needed help, Yes, but not from me. It is difficult to know that someone needs something but not from you...and not be distracted...and not try and be the ONE that fixes it...these are Spiritual issues. All people have these experiences, but some don't know what to do with it.
So this is me- the real me. I am a Tarot Card Reader and Intuitive. I am an Angel Card/Oracle Card Reader. I love to meet with people and spread some cards and see what the cards offer to other people. I use my accumulated years of Spiritual and Emotional Wisdom to teach, guide, advise and support people on their journey. Thanks for reading! Keep up the good work.
Love Everyone...and Be Blessed,
Lilac~
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